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Jessica
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Hi my name is Jessie and I love art....thats it. LOL.

Alright, I changed my user name from Nomi2009 to JleenCooky. This is my page for poetry and commissions. I wanted to separate Nomi from me as far as my poetry goes as not all of it is related to her. Lets see how it goes, lol.

Current Residence: M.N.
Favorite genre of music: Rock/Metal
Favorite style of art: ALL TYPES
Operating System: Windows 7 (Laptop)
Personal Quote: "Eat your fortune before reading your cookie." -Me....lol
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Tell me why did you have to go away?
I love you so much and I wanted you to stay.
The scars over my heart will never heal.
I cant believe this is happening or believe this is real.
So what do I do? What should I say?
I just do what you taught me to and so I pray.
But your absence hurts and it never stops.
Everyday my face is covered in tear drops.
Why did you leave me? Why did you die?
I never wanted to say goodbye.
I am sorry I didn't call you more.
My regrets will forever be a sore.
I tried my best in the end to care for you.
But I took the time for granted and that I cant undo.
Please tell me will it ever get better again?
I will never be the same without you and it too much to comprehend.
So I'll just continue to pray for the hurt to go away.
Reminding myself that we will see each other again some day.
So I Pray
Poetry ©Jessica McNeil

I wrote this about my grandma. She passed April 13, 2015.. a day I will never forget. I helped take care of her the last few years of her life. I should have helped her much sooner than when she needed to be taken care of.. and thats just something I'll forever regret. I feel like when she passed it made a scar over my heart that only I feel. It wont go away or heal. I will forever have this scar and be forever changed from it. I miss her more that I could ever say. Im blessed to have had her as my grandmother.
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A request was made for a book.
I went to the store to have a look.
Aisle by aisle I searched for the one,
Not leaving the store until I was done.
Trying to find the story that would be just right.
Then there it was; the perfect book glowing in light.
A book from my childhood that I loved dearly.
Something I read more than just yearly.
I hope you love this book as much as I do.
As I looked for the most special book just for you.
The Perfect Book
Poetry ©Jessica Lee McNeil

Dedicated to: Steve, Amber and Savannah Carlson
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I knew this dream was too good to keep.

Now every night I am crying and losing sleep.

I want your warm arms to hold me close and tight.

The thoughts of us together are now fading out of sight.

Had a feeling that this was too good to be true.

I am accepting now that I am not good enough for you.

I know I’m going to miss you so very much.

Trying to believe your promises that we’ll keep in touch.

So I’ll bite my lips to keep my sobbing hushed.

Never showing that my spirits and heart are now crushed.

I should have kept my heart from falling so hard and fast.

Fooling myself in to believe that this would last.
Foolish Dream
Poetry ©Jessica McNeil
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The cold knife pierces my skin.

Fighting an inner war that I will never win.

In the darkness I am all alone.

My nightmares have become my home.

The red lines I call my friend.

Being happy I can no longer pretend.

Unable to let the self-hate go.

Can’t seem to hide the emptiness as I let it show.

Always wondering what’s wrong with me.

I’m chained to this sorrow in which I can never break free.
Never Win
Poetry ©Jessica McNeil

I did write this as a lot of other poems about my struggle with depression, self harm and self hate. Its a daily struggle. More so a struggle not to cut myself. The self hurting is a very hard habit to break being I have done it since I was a little girl. This wasn't written as a pity me thing or a cry for help.. if I want help I will ask. However, as of late I feel that I am beyond help. This was written to reflect more so.. maybe to also create awareness I suppose. I wish that one day I will stop all of it and it will magically go away.. I'll continue to wait.
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While by JleenCooky
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I did not write this.. but i did use a art program to put together the words and the heart. I just like it. ^^

I take no credit for it.
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Alright, I changed my user name from Nomi2009 to JleenCooky. This is my page for poetry and commissions. I wanted to separate Nomi from me as far as my poetry goes as not all of it is related to her. Lets see how it goes, lol.

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Maple-Blood Featured By Owner Dec 27, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the watch, hon~♥
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VisceralHound Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2015   Digital Artist
Thanks for watching!
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FurnarchyDevil Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2015  Professional General Artist
Thank you so much for the favorite!!!!
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JleenCooky Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2015
Your welcome.
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KinHikari Featured By Owner Sep 19, 2015
Thanks for the fave.
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JleenCooky Featured By Owner Sep 19, 2015
Welcome!
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themanwithdepression Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2015
hello
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JleenCooky Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2015
Hello to you.
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themanwithdepression Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2015
Im Anthony the mad night guard
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JleenCooky Featured By Owner Sep 9, 2015
Im Jessie, nice to meet you.
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